well first i got depressed about rp but then i watched the new episode of darker than black and it made me even more depressed.

in other news it's like badou only not greasy enough

*shovels in chinese*

the carver arc is making me feel shitty because it's like i'm too dumb or slow to be able to catch him or at least do something useful. even if my characters would be competent at helping in canon, they cant be in kc because im not able to play them as even mildly useful i dont know idk. i was thinking about dropping everyone but badou but now i'm thinking about dropping badou but i know if i did i'd feel bad about it but it's stupid for me to plya him if all i do is get choked up about it i don't know

ughnm flsdmgkdfmg this is fuckin stupid. i need to spend more time doing ocs and other stuff.

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